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U.G.H. [09 Aug 2004|11:49am] As i sat in the bleechers on the first day of school,i wondered why everyone thought i was kool. i was greeted with pushes and sholves as they all befriended me with welcomes and hugs. as i walked down the halls of the ug.i had everything i wanted if only i could see. then i went back to when i ran outside under this tree,screaming as i started to twirl and twierl. i wondered how long i could balance without looking down,before the world passed by and i hit the ground. from jefferson to the end of a knife,the ones that will cut you,pain killers for the nite. aaron and jed are my two best friends,we'd stand and talk and play with safty pins. then i met lorri,started out she'd ignore me.couse i went behind her back and wrote love letters to jed. she asked why i had his screen name she said i shouldent have it.she said i was immature,disrespectful,and i think she had had it. what would you do if someone tried to steal your man.stand up,pull back your fist and begin: why befriend him..to get closer to me?when i say befriend i mean it truthfully. and in lorris words:just tell me one thing,did you really think you'd win over me? and at tat piont i stopped spinning,lost my ballance and fell,the world passed by me as i hit the ground and made no sound. and then i spoke up in a soft little tone,no i said as i asked her to take my hand,walk with me lets be friends. as i got on the schoolbus on the last day of school,i thought of my first day,the story that begain with an "A". ...::fall into the shaddows::...

the celler [09 Aug 2004|11:48am] the celler chains banging from my celler door,my bloody footpirints creaking right accross the floor. spikes sink in me as i scream for more.i scrape my nails down my bloody celler door. bats flying in and out of my lost dark soul.giveing me eternal life behind my dark celler door. the walls surround me as i sit infront of my celler door.im lost and cold and now im ignored. waiting for my dark immortal to keep my soul.jedidiah has a way of keeping me lost down in this black hole. for he is my fallen star that stole my soul and shed his eternal life on my now lost soul.that i kept hid in this underground hole. by:DarkImmortal. *yoor anima adulb meus!* ...::fall into the shaddows::...

the story of vampire Raphael [09 Aug 2004|11:45am] the story of vampire Raphael Old gods on new streets,some wonder weather im still alive from the undead or sealed away for all eternity.well it has been 3,000 years and today the cofen behind the doors of my resting place was unsealed.and now for those of you who care this is my life,this is my journal,this is my story! London,1854. Evil cuts deep as i slide from my resting place.hurt from the wounds and thurst as i search for some sort of mortal life.let me just start at the begining. Greenleaf,rd.the house of Italia.a mortal child. as she flips through a magizine looking for something interresting to put in an artical shes writeing she hears the most wonderful,powerful,hansomest voice comeing from the tv.Headlined above and highlighted on the screen it says....new comer:the vampire"Raphael". Italia is so interrested she starts to research him.and finds a library on jack,st that holds the journal of raphael.she rushes down to jack,st to find it.she checks it out.it reads: Tarzana,1820. men amongst men...all Immortal.attak me...bite into me..each one their fair share.makeing me one of them.an immortal.i scream for help but no one comes.the more i fight the fiercer they get.the more i struggle the more it hurts."enough!"a deep voice yells out.they all make way for this dark and immortal prince.screams and yells and excitement all turn to silent.the man makes his way to me and says,"hello,my name is marko."i yell out"people will be looking for me...im a noble man!"marko smerks"i doubt they'll find you here lord raphael.your far away from home." four months have passed as my master and i bond i learn more and more.for he made me.i am at his command.we walk the streets together as he teaches me my wrights and wrongs and how i should live in the dark...in the shaddows and never be known.as a year of training passes.he oarders me to leave.to find ahome where i can be happy and search for a mate.i never dreamed of the life ahead of me.nore dream of makeing a mortal my mate...thats what i wanted.to make an mortal virgin immortal.if i go to a immortal probally all ill get is a slut who has had every man on her at the admerlds arms.the admerlds arms is a vampire club on the outskirts of trintonville,london.im moveing today on the tweenty-third of may to a mansion on alpine,rd.my life with marko and my journal must end here.couse this is the past.i shall set this book in a bag and throw it from my tower into the sea.for that would wash away my thoughts.goodbye. -Raphael chapt 2 by this time Italia was verry interrested and was curious.she had to find out more about him.she already had immortal friends from the admerlds arms,so she thought that maybe they knew of him."well."said Italia.first things first.she started to drive down alpine to raphael's house to give back his belongings.as she aproached she gazed up at the huge house before her.she walked up a few steps.up to the front giant twin doors and knocked.a servant girl opend the door."hello."a soft voice said.she seemed pretty nice."my name is sara,come on in." "oh im just here to make a delivery."said Italia." "well we dont get much visitors."said sara. "well i should go."said Italia. "oh raphael should be down in just a minut."said sara. "just give him this."said Italia holding out raphaels journal. "ok."said sara. "bye."said Italia. "bye."said sara.Italia shook all the way home.Raphael came down stairs buttoning the cuffs of his trench coat."where are you off to sir?"asked sara."to the admerlds arms for a night."answered raphael."why?"he asked."well nothing much really.a girl came by and said for me to give you this."said sara.raphael stared at it quite rapidly."uh sara",he said."did you get the girls name?" "no sir....im sorry.she dident leave one."said sara.raphael opened the book and a card fell from it.it was Italias ID card.raphael stuck it in his pocket,droped the book on the table,and left.when he got to the admerlds arms it was crowded and loud as usual.raphael brouht out the ID and went to look for the young girl.he looked everywhere in the building but she wasent there.he decided to step out back into the ally and saw a group of vampires and in the group was a young girl.raphael thought to himself....but why would vampires be friends with a mortal.they should of killed her...he thought.as the group said good bye and left her to walk home by herself she got a little shakey.couse as long as her immortal friends were there then nothing could harm her.she started to walk and ran into someone by accident.....well she thought it was an accident."oh im verry sorry."said Italia.he wouldent let her walk."why are you studying me?" raphael asked."maybe i want to know more about you."she said."well."he said."now its my turn." "you are a mortal.....right?"he asked."yes."said Italia."and are you a virgin?"raphael asked.Italia put her arm around the back of his neck and wispered"yes."as she niped his right ear.raphael said"good way to answer." "you know."he said,"i think i might be falling in love with you."see every year an immortal without a mate must choose his.but i made my mate up a long time ago.i wanted a mortal child...a virgin.and it just turns out...your the one.all you have to do is love me in return." "we dont even know each other."Italia said.he held her close and said,"do you believe in love at first sight?"she dident answer. chapter 3 voices yelled"keep your guns on him men and get my daughter out of there!"it was Italia's father with the vampire hunters.Italia held raphael tight."no father!"she screamed,"i love this man!" "he is no man! hes a blood sucking imbassal!and for god sake take the guns off them!"yelled Italias father.two men in the back said,"yeah,we'll kill him next time."Iatalia gripped raphaels coat and cryed on his sholder."what was the reason you stoped me in this ally anyway?"Italia asked."you returned something to me,i wanted to return something to you."he said as he handed her ID to her."thank you."Italia said."did you really mean it when you said you loved me?"asked raphael."no."said Italia.as a tear ran down raphaels face he walked away."wait!"Italia yelled.she ran half way down the ally and said,"i ment it."she said as she walked up to him."i ment it just like i ment to do this."italia said.and kissed him passionatley on the lips.raphaels heart lightend as he felt her tongue againced his.as their lips pressed together he felt love and held her tight.they walked all the way to his house.and when they got there he showed Italia to his room.his smooth bed was black velvet.and candles lit the room.Italia crawled on the bed and raphael followed.she pulled him close and held him tight as he sunk his teeth into her delicate skin.they extanged bites and held each other.they made love till they both fell asleep.the noise and clicks from shells and triggers of guns awoke them.sara ran into the room screaming,"sir i tried to stop them." "father!"Italia screamed,"i told you to leave us be!i love him!if you kill him, you might as well kill me too!im just like him now! chapter 4..the last one two men yelled,"god,shes one of them!we'll kill them both!" "no."said Italias father...."we will leave and never return."as they left Italia held Raphael tight.he kissed he passionately and said,"remember this kiss couse it will be our last." he said as he left."Raphael!dont leave!your all i have!"she screamed.Italia lay on the bed crying and dieing inside of a broken heart.sara ran in and said,"if you love him,find him,if he is dead,do this...Italia screamed and broke down in tears as she saw raphaels body on the sidewalk on sidebend,st soaked from rain.she slit her wrist and held it over his mouth.as she watched the blood drip into his mouth she slid her hand down his cold cheek.sara came running down the street.and said,"i forgot to tell you,that when he wakes he wont remember you but it will all flash by him.as he woke she held him and kissed him.raphael grabbed her wrist."who are you?!"he shouted."your Italia"she said as she smiled.he said,"i dont know you,you stay away from me!"she started to cry and took sara by the hand and ran back to his home.on the way sara said,"he wont live,he will for hopefully a day but he'll pass on.im sorry dear."Italia ran up to raphaels room and went to bed crying.she woke to a cold hand on her face.then the pressure of lips on hers.tears fell from raphaels cheek onto hers as he pulled her up and layed down on his back.she held him and he said,"i love you."and closed his eyes. raphael was buried in richmond cemetary in 1953 on december 5th. Italia visits his resting place everyday. and will love him for years to come. "Limp bizkit" "Behind Blue Eyes" No one knows what it's like To be the bad man To be the sad man Behind blue eyes No one knows what it's like To be hated To be fated To telling only lies But my dreams They aren't as empty As my conscience seems to be I have hours, only lonely My love is vengeance That's never free No one knows what it's like To feel these feelings Like I do And I blame you No one bites back as hard On their anger None of my pain and woe Can show through But my dreams They aren't as empty As my conscience seems to be I have hours, only lonely My love is vengeance That's never free Discover l.i.m.p. say it (x4) No one knows what it's like To be mistreated To be defeated Behind blue eyes No one know how to say That they’re sorry And don’t worry I’m not telling lies But my dreams They aren't as empty As my conscience seems to be I have hours, only lonely My love is vengeance That's never free No one knows what it's like To be the bad man To be the sad man Behind blue eyes posted in darkimmortalxzx on:May. 22nd, 2004 ...::fall into the shaddows::...

the truth [09 Aug 2004|11:45am] you gave us faith,if we were to fall you'd help us,off the ground. he grabs us keeping us from falling.hes just another angel without wings who tried flying. everyone who saw him,looked up to him as god.and now just to hear his name, you'd turn away and nod. for everyone who loved him.loved him and kept him well.for all the tabloids who dident.you kept him sick and then he fell. for all i care tabloids can go to hell.and its not all thier fault its rivers too.if he dident want to be thought of,then quitting,moveing on is what he needed to do. keanu should of talked to him,mabe he did.river was just a lonely,dark hearted kid. his death was tragic,everyone was sad.people left flowers,alot felt real bad.tabloids walked by and nodded with glee.why dont they stop.they killed him now let him be. dedicated to river phoenix. by:JoJo(DarkImmortal) 6-24-04 ...::fall into the shaddows::...

angel from my nightmear [09 Aug 2004|11:43am] angel from my nightmear as i walk through my vally of eternal night. nothing seems to hit me but a glimpse of light. the light is from my farie who visits my dreams at night. he came to tell me a little something that happened in his flight. he started to discribe: this thing makes me happy while it makes you sad. and then it makes me laugh at you to make you mad. i cant understand what hes saying sometimes,it makes me ill.he wears a orange teeshirt and pops to many pills. i tried to tell him man you know those drugs they kill. and must i know your name before your time comes to seel. he said,friend my name is jackie. im the angel from your dream i came to take you with me for your my farie queen. for our departure was quiet and our kingdom was silent.the skys turned to black,green,grey,and then vilot. mabe someday ill see my angel again. somewhere in my nightmear of giggles and wins. ...::fall into the shaddows::...

the archer [09 Aug 2004|11:42am] based on (the archer-sleepy hollow) the archer. the moonlights based on a little black rock.one from anchant evil and scratched out from birds of a flock.out and down a pasture of an old folks crop.down a little road passed the tree of the dead.to a small little area where witchcraft was spread. behind the bushes and all of the weeds,you'll find a carveing,one of your needs.and in the sand you'll find a swirl.a swirl of jagged edges,and spells,and pearls. the archer is he,he who stands on one knee and awaits for his love to come and love the,for he can be found in a small little town,sleepy hollow,one whos dark and hard to be found. there once was a witch who did not make a sound.one who coused death and more to be found. the archer was sealed in the cement one day.the day of courage and life and delay.that day made the darkness of the town turn to grey and from grey to light.and smiles were up tight.and the archer stood tall on one knee and arched to us all. by:DarkImmortal 5-5-04 ...::fall into the shaddows::...

butterfly king [09 Aug 2004|11:41am] Butterfly King. fly on my wings, dont let me sway, fly up by the sun's ray's,dont let me fly away. im a king of many men,and a crown made of tin. im a sinner, im a saint, drawn out with colorful paint. walking through fields of many flowers. falling to the ground like a smashing tower. this is one big fantisy. one small life,one who sings and fly's with me, your butterfly king. ...::fall into the shaddows::...

wake me from this "fairy" tale [09 Aug 2004|11:40am] go wishing on a star,no matter where you are.go wishing on a rainbow,no matter where the wind blows. if i have to go,away from all the snow,to another land,a land of green where i can dance and sing. if fairy tales arnt real.then why do you believe.in what is given.to mordevan.for he is heavens flowers,for he is heavens king,for he is heavens showers,for he will break off all your wings.tonight he will grab your hand and take you to a land.use all your imagineation and see all of his creation. you will fall inlove,and never want to leave him,he will wrap you up and you will be taken. hes not forsaken,becouse hes not the only one.he walks amongst you acting greatly.must he hide from everyone. make him someone,a mortal human.take his hand and feel alive. he is waiting,not mistakeing.please bring him to life. WAKE ME UP! ...::fall into the shaddows::...

again and forsaken [09 Aug 2004|11:39am] charmed but broken, asked but unspoken. silver and cold, riches and gold. noise and music, sing it dont use it. if asked id tell, you let go,i fell. ill take your hand, mine in yours,come with me on my tour. i love you,you love me too.kiss and tell this i promice you. i am what you say i am, and one day ill come back again. again and forsaken! ...::fall into the shaddows::...

death on a stormy night [09 Aug 2004|11:38am] wandering through a dream in the night. dark but just right in a room with no light. not wanting no more problems.death in the dark night as i write this poem under candle light. on june seconed the wind blew so unplesent. evil with its message.covering the world in wreakage. and as i get colder the people get older. drops of blood left on my shoulder. getting so much boulder.and to this i scream........ ITS OVER! 6-2-04 by:DarkImmortal ...::fall into the shaddows::...

driven by hate and consumed by fear [09 Aug 2004|11:36am] everything standing.....everyone reaching.......nobody breathing.....unable to bear the thought of you...forever longer the last thing is over, everyones gone.....nobody cares, the darkness awaites with four golden flares, the uneasy feeling of being pulled under,power of revenge with great thoughts and wonder,the dread of the lightness,the sence of all good,the power is driven like it never should.....watching the world,throw up in flames,the underworld awaites,no explainable debate.the future has come,forever ive waited.the dead is alive,just as ive stated.all of us will be damned to hell,nowhere to go unable to see or hear well.only fate to desend me,ive crossed the line.the torture awaites me,it only takes time.....it was driven by hate and consumed by fear.. ...::fall into the shaddows::...

death to the old me [09 Aug 2004|11:35am] a tear for every death,a smile to hide my pain,as i walk through the night i hide in shadows of shame.how have i wronged,what have i done,drops of blood run down the end of my gun.death is a part of me that will stay..something ive felt,almost,took me away.i lost part of myself that day,a day of the dead,so cold,and still so grey.as i walked through the celler on a new forming day,a note was sliped under the doorway.i pulled it up from the floor and begain:remember me to all my friends,i love you all but in the end,everyone makes mistakes,no one ever really wins.as i got closer to the end,it looked like a suicide note i wrote..but was it true could i really be dead,well i read the end of the note and it said,and though i could not write in pen,i write in blood,a crimson trend.hope this note doesent mean alot,couse what happened is now in to tight a knot.it cant be undone. _j-------- and before i could finish i looked to the floor,and all of a sudden my head just spun..couse there on the floor lay a dead body lieing next to a gun.when i came out of the celler that day i thought of a friend who i met the other day,someone i hurt and knew id done wrong,we made up and were friends.is my life just so long.now when im hurt i look back to a friend a friend i will cherish till my life is at an end.the celler is now where i hide all my thoughts,and my mortal me who lay on the dark,cold floor.what a loss?!?!? to:lorri -JoJo ...::fall into the shaddows::...

kewl!..comment please..my journal of poetry [09 Aug 2004|11:31am] "my castle" as i sit in the darkness behind a shaddow of light. i wish upon a star i may or i might. light goes straight through me as i pass through the gates. an excape to my castle to hide all my mistakes. the scratches upon me from thorns and discrase. all wind around me and turn into scrapes. i hide in the highest tower the darkest room at the slightest hour.i scream out in delight and mischif and power. bloody tears fall from my eyes as i call.call upon demons. the demons i saw. the voices that i hear come from a tear.the tear turns to clear. and returns to a smear. i think ill pass on.lost in my castle of fear. ...::fall into the shaddows::...

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